Balance

Is working too much a flaw?

I am scheduled to work around 70 hours this week. I wake up at 7am and work most days until at least 10pm. I woke at the Pelham House 2 days a week and a couple of brunch shifts and the Cleat & Anchor 4 nights a week. I am always going, but I love it. Right now it is all I really know. Constantly surrounding myself with ambitious people in the restaurant industry only ignites the fire more. I want and need to open my own family restaurant one day.

I always put too much food on my plate. I don't know why, I don't need to prove anything to anyone expect myself. There is always this fire inside of me telling myself that I am not good enough. Self doubt pushes me.

Right now

Work consumes my time. I don't mind it but I feel like I need more balance in my life. The meat on my plate is work, both at Cleat and Pelham. The starch is Inspire Others and the vegetables is time to myself and family time. I feel like I am not eating enough vegetables, both metaphorically and physically. That was a stretch of an analogy but you get what I am saying. I need to take more time for myself and my family because that is what makes me the happiest.

The things that make me the happiest right now include working at Cleat, spending time with my family and spending time with Mina and my other friends. Even though I don't see them all the time I still value that time over all else.

I am still very passionate about Inspire Others and I am kind of kicking myself for not putting more of my energy into it. This fall will be good for me though, to take some time off to reflect on this summer and focus more on the non - profit.

Finding purpose

Everyday I am constantly thinking about why I was put on this earth. I think more than anything it is to help people. To be different and find purpose through helping others. There is such a desire to be successful within me, mediocrity will never be enough.

Everyone can find their purpose by first finding out what they are passionate about.

Love yourself and treat everyone else with that same love